Still, if anyone has the determination to do it, I should place my bets on you.
... aaand my worlds are being corrupted from all my trial and error. Yet another roadblock.
Tbh, I'm not being driven by determination at this point. At least, it doesn't feel that way.
All I know is... Seeing what comes next... I can't afford not to care anymore. My world, the world I've known for nearly two decades is going to fade away soon; the pretense of freedom that allowed me to conceive that this was possible at all will fade with it, if I don't do it now. So... not determination, not anymore. Fear, maybe. Fear of time becoming a luxury rather than a commodity, of inadequacy, of... so many other things.
That said, I've always preferred the more tenebrous aspects of life. Though, perhaps not extinguished ambitions. heh.
